I never thought it would be me living in a shattered dream

hey people!!

I never thought it would be me, living in a shattered dream...how could you do this to me? Did you have fun leading me on and watching my fall in love with you? I hope you're happy. You led me on and shot me down, when it suited you. You asked why I was so guarded...maybe now you'll know why. I let you in and you hurt me, but the wounds healed. I foolishly let you in again...and you cut me deep. When you were confused about your feelings, why did you lie to me? Was it a cheap thrill? Well...it wasn't funny that's for sure. I thought you were the one...I thought we'd grow old together...you're the only person I have ever felt this way about...and now...you have completely crushed my heart.

I have waited months to talk to you, but that is not enough...longer you say. How much more do you think my heart can take? I feel so hurt, but even more so...I'm really disappointed in you. I thought you were different from the rest...special, unique...I would have done anything you asked me to do, if it pleased you. You were my knight in shinning armour, you were my soulmate, you were my best friend, the one person I could never hate.

You keep cutting me deep though...what have I done wrong? What did I do to deserve this pain and agony that you have caused me?

I still love you, but I don't know why. I don't know what I can do now.

peace

girl in the single lane

drowning in your own insecurities

hey all you bloggers out there!

We live in a world, where what one person says, goes, especially regarding what is "in" and what isn't. We all have our own insecurities, from our figures, to our ability to do something, the way we look and dress...everything about our lives. We all have our weaknesses too! Sometimes, I feel like I'm not good enough for people, my Father, my family, and prince...and then I remember, none of us are perfect. It is ok for me to have my flaws, I'm only human afterall. And my insecurities, are things I can work on to change.

I think we need to realise though, somethings, we cannot change. The way we feel about ourselves, our bodies, our ability to do things...these things we can change. For the simple reason...these problems belong to us. They are problems we have about ourselves and you will probably have people trying to encourage you saying you are beautiful and great at doing certain things. Not being good enough for your prince? Now that's a tricky one. Not knowing who your prince is, doesn't always help, but remember...he has flaws too. Recently, I've been thinking about my prince, and it is exciting not knowing who he is and I don't worry about not knowing, because my God knows.

Take a good look at yourselves people and remember...you are fearfully and wonderfully made by the true Father of the only perfect being to walk the earth. Be encouraged by that. He loves you no matter what you look like or what you achieve in life and so will your true prince.

anyway...I'll be taking some time out folks, I'm going on holiday for two weeks on Friday (the 7th) and I can't wait!! But when I return, I'm sure I'll have lots to share with you all!

peace

girl in the single lane