Ever wanted something you can’t have?
Hey all you bloggers out there.
If you have ever wanted something you can’t have, you how what I’m talking about. I’m sure at some point in our lives, we all experience this, whether it be wanting a game or a holiday or even a person…the feeling is still the same.
Here’s my story.
About a year ago I met this guy. He was everything I wanted in a husband and so much more. He was living my childhood dream of travelling to a certain country and the going to bible college. People always say, if you want to know how a guy will treat his wife, look at how he treats his mother. He treated his mother like she was royalty. He showered her with love. He was tall dark and handsome (emphasis on the tall) and was an inspiration to others. His future is set and he knows what he wants in life which is a big plus.
Anyway…I kept from him, how I felt about him until he told me about this girl he liked. He praised her in every way possible, her beauty, her character and her walk with God. He spoke about how she possessed all the qualities he looked for in a wife, and so much more. Shocked was I to discover he was talking about me. Great, I thought. I found someone who I can trust, turn to, and tell all of my darkest secrets to knowing he will never judge me. I found a great friend. Its funny how quickly we make friends and how quickly we lose them.
Who am I speaking about? That guy who I’ve written about for my last few entries. I thought we had a future together and really did. He has hurt me so much and I can’t help but think…would the one for me, ever hurt me like that? Answer: I don’t know. But here is what I do know. Wanting what you can’t have, is not a good thing, especially if it is a person. Trust me, I know. Because when you don’t get it, after you’ve been lead to believe otherwise, it stings. It hurts so much, because you feel like you lost something you never really had. You feel lonely (if it is a person) empty and upset and in some cases, you feel cheated.
It’s not a nice feeling I know, but with time, you’ll get over it. Don’t try and rush this though, I did and it backfired in my face. How does my fairytale end? Like this…the guy who I thought was prince charming, (I believe) is seeing someone else. All I can say to that is, I hope he’s happy with her. Happiness he deserves and I truly hope he’s found the one he is looking for.
peace
girl in the single lane
If you have ever wanted something you can’t have, you how what I’m talking about. I’m sure at some point in our lives, we all experience this, whether it be wanting a game or a holiday or even a person…the feeling is still the same.
Here’s my story.
About a year ago I met this guy. He was everything I wanted in a husband and so much more. He was living my childhood dream of travelling to a certain country and the going to bible college. People always say, if you want to know how a guy will treat his wife, look at how he treats his mother. He treated his mother like she was royalty. He showered her with love. He was tall dark and handsome (emphasis on the tall) and was an inspiration to others. His future is set and he knows what he wants in life which is a big plus.
Anyway…I kept from him, how I felt about him until he told me about this girl he liked. He praised her in every way possible, her beauty, her character and her walk with God. He spoke about how she possessed all the qualities he looked for in a wife, and so much more. Shocked was I to discover he was talking about me. Great, I thought. I found someone who I can trust, turn to, and tell all of my darkest secrets to knowing he will never judge me. I found a great friend. Its funny how quickly we make friends and how quickly we lose them.
Who am I speaking about? That guy who I’ve written about for my last few entries. I thought we had a future together and really did. He has hurt me so much and I can’t help but think…would the one for me, ever hurt me like that? Answer: I don’t know. But here is what I do know. Wanting what you can’t have, is not a good thing, especially if it is a person. Trust me, I know. Because when you don’t get it, after you’ve been lead to believe otherwise, it stings. It hurts so much, because you feel like you lost something you never really had. You feel lonely (if it is a person) empty and upset and in some cases, you feel cheated.
It’s not a nice feeling I know, but with time, you’ll get over it. Don’t try and rush this though, I did and it backfired in my face. How does my fairytale end? Like this…the guy who I thought was prince charming, (I believe) is seeing someone else. All I can say to that is, I hope he’s happy with her. Happiness he deserves and I truly hope he’s found the one he is looking for.
peace
girl in the single lane
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