Feeling numb and not knowing what to do about it
Hey all!!
This has been the strangest few days for me. I had a reunion with an old friend, kinda…I barely got to speak to her. I’ve missed her so much. I handed in film last week, and we got our photos back. Only to discover a photo of my ex amongst them. I couldn’t believe it. Numb!! I do wonder what he is doing with himself these days…if he’s still walking with the Lord and things…but I will never find out. I found some old notes he wrote me too…I thought I had burned them all…I guess not.
I ran into my old high school bully today too. That was so weird. She was so horrible to me, she picked on me everyday until her mother died. She used to sing horrible songs about me, call me a liar all the time, write all over my school stuff and then copy my answers in class. She wasn’t nice to me at all. It was so weird to see her again. Only this time, she has nothing over me.
I guess something else that is still bothering me would be that guy who hurt me recently. It still stings. I haven’t heard from him in a wee while, and I don’t know…I guess I just want to talk to him…but the ball is in his court. I can’t do anything else, I’ve done enough. I just hope he can fit me in before he leaves again…this time its for two years. I wish him all the best don’t get me wrong…him leaving will actually help me get over him.
My dearest Nicole!! She is leaving too, for three years. I miss her already, I really do. I’ve been trying to meet with her since November, and nothing has ever come from that. I’ve tried so hard to keep this friendship alive…now I’m just exhausted. So how am I? I am exhausted, hurt, lonely and want a good cry. I know my God is with me everywhere I go, I just wish sometimes, my friends were there too. I had a bible study the other night, and most of my friends, turned their back on me. What can you do?
peace out
girl in the single lane
This has been the strangest few days for me. I had a reunion with an old friend, kinda…I barely got to speak to her. I’ve missed her so much. I handed in film last week, and we got our photos back. Only to discover a photo of my ex amongst them. I couldn’t believe it. Numb!! I do wonder what he is doing with himself these days…if he’s still walking with the Lord and things…but I will never find out. I found some old notes he wrote me too…I thought I had burned them all…I guess not.
I ran into my old high school bully today too. That was so weird. She was so horrible to me, she picked on me everyday until her mother died. She used to sing horrible songs about me, call me a liar all the time, write all over my school stuff and then copy my answers in class. She wasn’t nice to me at all. It was so weird to see her again. Only this time, she has nothing over me.
I guess something else that is still bothering me would be that guy who hurt me recently. It still stings. I haven’t heard from him in a wee while, and I don’t know…I guess I just want to talk to him…but the ball is in his court. I can’t do anything else, I’ve done enough. I just hope he can fit me in before he leaves again…this time its for two years. I wish him all the best don’t get me wrong…him leaving will actually help me get over him.
My dearest Nicole!! She is leaving too, for three years. I miss her already, I really do. I’ve been trying to meet with her since November, and nothing has ever come from that. I’ve tried so hard to keep this friendship alive…now I’m just exhausted. So how am I? I am exhausted, hurt, lonely and want a good cry. I know my God is with me everywhere I go, I just wish sometimes, my friends were there too. I had a bible study the other night, and most of my friends, turned their back on me. What can you do?
peace out
girl in the single lane
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