Happy New Year
hey bloggers!
Well, first of all, Happy New Year guys!
2007…I can’t believe it’s here already. Every year, on the 1st of January, my grandparents take my family out for dinner, and this year was to be no different. We go to the same restaurant every year, and again, this year was no different. However, we do normally get a different table every time we go…not this year. We sat at the same table, we sat at two years ago, when my partner at the time, joined us for dinner.
It was so strange, being at that table again. Being at the table that he was welcomed into our family at, two years ago. This was the first time my grandparents met him, and it was a great day. I’ve still got the pictures, from that day. It’s about all the memories I still have, that are visible to other people. With everything that has happened too, in recent weeks, this just reminded me of what I lost on the 27th on January, 2005.
I lost one of my best friends that day. He was not just a dear friend though, as you know. He was the man I thought I would spend the rest of my life with, loving him, serving him, and praising God with him. If you read my previous entry, “But then I miss you, most at Christmas time”, then you’ll know where this is coming from. I miss him! What we shared was something special, and although to the world, it will not appear that way, it was to me. What I mean by this is, to the world, a relationship appears to be largely based on physical interactions, and appearances, but not for us. I really cared about him, and how he felt, and what he was thinking.
Do I miss the relationship we had? Sometimes, I guess I do. It was nice to know there was always someone to talk to, out with the family. Someone who could give you a big hug, when you needed it most and someone who would text you, just to say hi. I miss the friendship we had too. We had some fun times, with signs (funny game to be played late at night), football, (involving me being in goals, getting bruised as I saved the ball, or out on the field, with him being to only guy who would pass to me), moose-pants, (another game to be played at night, lol!), uno…and many more.
A new year has just started, and already, as I look to the near future, there’s a lot going on. University this year, is just going to be crazy, with course work, placement, not to mention the increased responsibility placed upon me at the Christian Union. On the plus side, searching for prince charming could not be more out of my mind…I just don’t have time, lol!! Sorry, husband, if you ever read this in years to come, LOL!
However, I do like somebody. And no, he doesn’t know, nor will he ever, because he doesn’t even know I exist. You know what I’m talking about, if you have read previous entries. Such is life, I guess! Obviously, it’s not meant to be, and that’s fine.
Lord, let Your will be done in my life this year. Take over my heart, and protect it.
peace
girl in the single lane
Well, first of all, Happy New Year guys!
2007…I can’t believe it’s here already. Every year, on the 1st of January, my grandparents take my family out for dinner, and this year was to be no different. We go to the same restaurant every year, and again, this year was no different. However, we do normally get a different table every time we go…not this year. We sat at the same table, we sat at two years ago, when my partner at the time, joined us for dinner.
It was so strange, being at that table again. Being at the table that he was welcomed into our family at, two years ago. This was the first time my grandparents met him, and it was a great day. I’ve still got the pictures, from that day. It’s about all the memories I still have, that are visible to other people. With everything that has happened too, in recent weeks, this just reminded me of what I lost on the 27th on January, 2005.
I lost one of my best friends that day. He was not just a dear friend though, as you know. He was the man I thought I would spend the rest of my life with, loving him, serving him, and praising God with him. If you read my previous entry, “But then I miss you, most at Christmas time”, then you’ll know where this is coming from. I miss him! What we shared was something special, and although to the world, it will not appear that way, it was to me. What I mean by this is, to the world, a relationship appears to be largely based on physical interactions, and appearances, but not for us. I really cared about him, and how he felt, and what he was thinking.
Do I miss the relationship we had? Sometimes, I guess I do. It was nice to know there was always someone to talk to, out with the family. Someone who could give you a big hug, when you needed it most and someone who would text you, just to say hi. I miss the friendship we had too. We had some fun times, with signs (funny game to be played late at night), football, (involving me being in goals, getting bruised as I saved the ball, or out on the field, with him being to only guy who would pass to me), moose-pants, (another game to be played at night, lol!), uno…and many more.
A new year has just started, and already, as I look to the near future, there’s a lot going on. University this year, is just going to be crazy, with course work, placement, not to mention the increased responsibility placed upon me at the Christian Union. On the plus side, searching for prince charming could not be more out of my mind…I just don’t have time, lol!! Sorry, husband, if you ever read this in years to come, LOL!
However, I do like somebody. And no, he doesn’t know, nor will he ever, because he doesn’t even know I exist. You know what I’m talking about, if you have read previous entries. Such is life, I guess! Obviously, it’s not meant to be, and that’s fine.
Lord, let Your will be done in my life this year. Take over my heart, and protect it.
peace
girl in the single lane
posted by single and waiting @ 1:21 AM
1 Comments:
At 5:56 PM,
Portrait of Peter said…
2007 - a New Year, a year of seeking out, learning with enthusiasm and helping others with their path of uncertainty.
And yet deep down within us - we at New Year - always have a sense of "the past" - we remember quite vividly - the times of joy, moments of special tenderness and then a cloud comes over us - the unhappiness of those - no longer with us to share or to guide as this New Year commences.
For many of us - your emotive thoughts - we very much empathise with you both in thoughts and also in prayers.
Phillip
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