When your ex is back in your life
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You’re walking along in the single lane, and things are going great. There are a few hiccups, but you still stay in the single lane waiting for God to call you out of it. You patiently wait for the Lord, and struggle to keep your focus on Him. You meet guys and think…mmm could they be the one? God constantly teaches you, to wait for Him, and to love your brothers, as brothers. You stumble across something unfamiliar and curiosity makes you dig deeper. At a closer you look, you are taken aback by what you have discovered. It’s him. That big part of your past, is back, but in a very different way.
Relieved are you, when you discover he is happily with someone else. You are reassured that the break up was right, right for both of you. He may have met his wife now, and that’s great. Do not doubt, that the relationship you shared with him, will teach you a lot, it might even have taught him a few things. You haven’t forgotten the relationship you shared with him, he might still remember too.
I am reminded of the pain I caused him, as these memories come flooding back, and I just hope that he has learned from that experience. “Whatever doesn’t kill you, only makes you stronger” or so they say. For me, everything that I put into that relationship, I keep close to my heart now. If you know me, you’ll know this, I am now a very guarded young woman. I am reluctant to let any guy in, but this is not all because of this past relationship, part of it is that, I don’t want to let any guy in who is not my husband. So I shut them all out. He, David, has taught me a lot, more than he will ever know, have I taught him anything? Maybe not, but the very fact that I learned so much tells me, that our relationship wasn’t a complete waste of time. Some good did come out of it, although it wasn’t obvious straight away.
My father just asked me, do I still think about my ex? Yeah, I do. Not in a “I want to get back with him” way, but I do wonder what he is doing at University, and I do still pray for him, that he would continue to grow in Christ. I know this guy is not my husband, and I’m pretty sure, he knows I’m not his wife, but the past does still exist. Any regrets? People ask me this so often when they hear my story, and yes I do have one. I would change one thing…the way I harshly ended the relationship, and cut off all contact with him.
Why did I do that? I’m only human and I have to admit, it was for selfish reasons…it was too hard for me. It was too hard to be “just friends” with this person that I, had held such strong feelings for. I couldn’t cope with it. Every time he got in touch, I wept…sometimes I replied…but this shortly died. If you (my ex) ever read this…I am so sorry!
Someone said to be that they saw something pure in me, well, I’m not. I’m just a sinner, who makes so many mistakes all the time. It was my sin that nailed Him to that rugged cross, and I’m so thankful for His forgiveness.
peace
girl in the single lane
You’re walking along in the single lane, and things are going great. There are a few hiccups, but you still stay in the single lane waiting for God to call you out of it. You patiently wait for the Lord, and struggle to keep your focus on Him. You meet guys and think…mmm could they be the one? God constantly teaches you, to wait for Him, and to love your brothers, as brothers. You stumble across something unfamiliar and curiosity makes you dig deeper. At a closer you look, you are taken aback by what you have discovered. It’s him. That big part of your past, is back, but in a very different way.
Relieved are you, when you discover he is happily with someone else. You are reassured that the break up was right, right for both of you. He may have met his wife now, and that’s great. Do not doubt, that the relationship you shared with him, will teach you a lot, it might even have taught him a few things. You haven’t forgotten the relationship you shared with him, he might still remember too.
I am reminded of the pain I caused him, as these memories come flooding back, and I just hope that he has learned from that experience. “Whatever doesn’t kill you, only makes you stronger” or so they say. For me, everything that I put into that relationship, I keep close to my heart now. If you know me, you’ll know this, I am now a very guarded young woman. I am reluctant to let any guy in, but this is not all because of this past relationship, part of it is that, I don’t want to let any guy in who is not my husband. So I shut them all out. He, David, has taught me a lot, more than he will ever know, have I taught him anything? Maybe not, but the very fact that I learned so much tells me, that our relationship wasn’t a complete waste of time. Some good did come out of it, although it wasn’t obvious straight away.
My father just asked me, do I still think about my ex? Yeah, I do. Not in a “I want to get back with him” way, but I do wonder what he is doing at University, and I do still pray for him, that he would continue to grow in Christ. I know this guy is not my husband, and I’m pretty sure, he knows I’m not his wife, but the past does still exist. Any regrets? People ask me this so often when they hear my story, and yes I do have one. I would change one thing…the way I harshly ended the relationship, and cut off all contact with him.
Why did I do that? I’m only human and I have to admit, it was for selfish reasons…it was too hard for me. It was too hard to be “just friends” with this person that I, had held such strong feelings for. I couldn’t cope with it. Every time he got in touch, I wept…sometimes I replied…but this shortly died. If you (my ex) ever read this…I am so sorry!
Someone said to be that they saw something pure in me, well, I’m not. I’m just a sinner, who makes so many mistakes all the time. It was my sin that nailed Him to that rugged cross, and I’m so thankful for His forgiveness.
peace
girl in the single lane
posted by single and waiting @ 11:19 AM
2 Comments:
At 1:51 AM,
Me said…
Its only natural to still think about your ex - some ppl try to pretend they dont and act as if that person has never been a part of their life but it doesnt work that way. I think there's always a small attachment to ppl you've been that close to and sometimes it can be good to be able to stay in touch but some ppl prefer not to and it could be a shick when your ex suddenly contacts you. Its oh so confusing in the land of relationships!
At 1:35 PM,
Portrait of Peter said…
I do agree it is only natural to think of your ex. The many "if's" come into play - the mind often has a "crazy moment" - I call it.
I notice that you often appear to put yourself down (low self-esteem)? Whilst at the same time put your ex on a higher level.
I have been guilty of this myself in the past, however, I have learnt to become more positive about myself and whilst it does take some time to move away from the past - the future now has more appeal - as it is a new beginning!!
Thanks your honest story.
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